Camera Eye

Lost in the confusion of my mind

Looking for a way out

This cannot be real

Caught up in my emotions of confusion and anger

Wondering if they understand my tears
Always keeping my head bowed too afraid to see my future
Afraid of the hurt & pain that awaits me

Biting my tongue for others because of the fear of being alone
Compromising for the family but getting nothing in return
Wondering why life has thrown me this
The ups and downs; the tears and smiles

Praying that someone can help me out
Regretting all the moments I didn't fully cherish
I didn't think they would be taken from me

Afraid of the uncertainties that lie ahead
Lost in my struggle
I never thought I would be that kid. Not me.

To summarize the event this camera eye is overseeing, it is the divorce of my parents. I was young at the time so I was very confused and didn't think it was really happening because it was a huge change for me. The camera eye is seeing not only the event itself but how I was feeling during it. 

M.L.R

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain

“ You will never know how much I care. You are my best friend my soul mate and my everything, you mean the world to me and I never want that to end. Me without you is like Adam without Eve. It is just unnatural, you might just be my best friend and I might not be anything to you. But I do love you with all my heart.”

 

 

                                    “……but girl I gotta see you tonight”

 

Love is like a friednship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.

 

                             Friends can help each other. A true friend is

                             Someone who lets you have total freedom to

                             Be yourself- and especially to feel. Or, not

feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at

the moment is fine with them. That’s what

real love amounts to- letting a person be

what he really is

This is about a relationship that I am currently involved in. Everything in this describes how I feel and he feels. I believe this gives a good description of my relationship.

US ROUTE 99

I was aiming for the horizon
the peaks would be my new backyard

cremate my body and let the ocean have the rest of me

That's where I was headed

and the places on the globe I didn't know existed

Can we pretend that are airplanes in the night sky are shooting stars 

HOWARD FOOTE ONCE TOOK A
 JET FOR A JOY RIDE

are there guidelines or regulations
the new air craft would be discussed

PLAID PANTS, CHECKERED HAT
AND READY TO SWING INTO HAWAII

Grapevines

hard leather box, crimson and gold
polished silver tray draped with linen
Cartier, a diamond gleaming, staring, demanding attention

the sun, now setting, warmed my silk dress
peaceful moments, deep breaths, a vacation from life
grapevines left dancing shadows over the hills
the spice of the wine filled my head

tears came without warning
stomach dropping
overwhelming wave of anxiety
paralyzed at the thought of an answer

warm cobblestone under my polished toes
encapsulated by the straps of my heels
the isolation from the others
not a coincidence

watchful eyes hanging on for my next words
crowds, strangers invested in the pursuit of a happy ending
dinner and a show

who had this girl become
labels, carrots and foreign cars - a race
gala, balls, fundraisers
polished to be a centerpiece, admired, untouched
complacent, an accessory
envied only by outsiders

the news paper headlines, court rooms, money fraud
screams, greed, interviews
politically correct, channel  Jackie O

voice striped, opinion mocked, belittled
suffocated by the expectations
"how dare you speak to the staff"

the words couldn't come
knots in my throat
mind swimming
saying no, no to the man who hears only "yes"

no to a life of coasting
no to silence
no to duchess
no to the little girl dreams

filled with my grandmothers heart
my stand was taken
finally free.

Race for Gold in the Snow

Figure Skating Gold Is Russia’s First

For the last five years, construction trucks have rumbled day and night through the street that bisects the village, on what used to be a gravel road but was paved over for Olympic building purposes. The village has gone without fresh water since 2008..

Defying, and Then Exploiting, Gravity

Anderson has won more of slopestyle’s big events than any woman in history, and her gold medal capped an American sweep of the inaugural Olympic slopestyle events.

“It’s a great feeling because you can just float,”

Bobsledder who punched his way out of his hotel room, now stuck in elevator.

cites: NY Times.com

Need for Speed

Sport involving the racing of automobiles for competition, there are numerous different categories of auto racing.


Age and experience will matter regardless of whether Jimmie Johnson or Matt Kenseth wins this year's NASCAR tittle.


Summer's here and the time is right
for racin' in the street


A street racer who was framed by a wealthy business associate joins a cross country race with revenge in mind.


2 Oklahoma law- enforcement officers, suspect killed in high-speed chase






http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Auto_racing
http://www.lyricsdepot.com/bruce-springsteen/racing-in-the-street.html
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2369135/
http://articles.latimes.com/keyword/race-car-drivers
http://www.cleveland.com/nation/index.ssf/2014/01/2_oklahoma_law-enforcement_off.html

An American Innovator

George Eastman

Eastman Kodak Company

American Technology

Imaging solutions and services for businesses

Use of roll film

bring photography to the mainstream

major philanthropist

dominant position in photographic film

1932: George Eastman dies, taking his own life with a gun shot.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Eastman
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eastman_Kodak#History

Greed

she take my money when I'm in need
Yeah she's a trifling friend indeed
Oh she's a gold digger way over town
That digs on me

SHOW ME THE MONEY

2.5 BILLION DOLLAR DIVORCE, MOST EXPENSIVE TO DATE

In greed we trust?-NY Times